Vol. 1; Issue 19
by Sarah
Lillian stood on the sidewalk unable to move. The small cottage taunted her from a few yards away. Her father, hiding in this small house? Her father hiding at all? Absurd.
The images of Mae imprinted in her mind sprang forth and reasserted the urgency she’d abandoned for that brief moment. Without further delay she rushed up to the door, pounding on it with every bit of urgency she could manage.
The loud echoing clunk of the deadbolt reverberated far deeper than the small wooden door of the cottage called for. With one blink the door became immense. Heavy, deeply stained oak with intricate carvings.
Her heart stopped as the image of the small building was replaced with a sprawling home. Window upon window reflected the bright sun that she swore was a full moon just moments before.
“What’s the rush, toots?” Bent over a walker, a bone-thin old man gave her a wicked smirk. “Ain’t no one here running anywhere.”
“What?” Lillian turned, eyeing every person on the now sprawling lawn around her. Each and every one of them was elderly, ranging from her dad’s age of fifty to some that looked nearer to death than life. “What the hell?”
“I’m surprised you managed to find me.” The warmth in her father’s tone was unfamiliar, unwelcome.
“What have you done?! Do you have any idea what’s happened?” Lillian spun, ready to attack.
He smirked from his wheelchair when she froze in place. “You’ve forgotten what’s real haven’t you?”
“Real? I haven’t forgotten anything.” Even as she said the words, she felt the doubt creeping up. Somehow his words nagged at her. No, it was treachery. Right now Mae was in trouble and he was the only one that could help. “No! Stop trying to trick me, Dad. Mae’s in trouble. We have to help her.”
“Mae?”
“Yes, Mae. You know, your daughter!”
“Lil. You are my daughter.”
“And so is Mae! God, dad. Now isn’t the time-“
“No, Lillian. You are my only daughter.”
His utter calm was upsetting her more than anything that had happened. “No. Mae. My sister-“
“You do not have a sister. Or a brother. You were an only child.”
“No.”
“I’d hoped this wouldn’t happen.” His hand grasped hers, the grip strong. “I feared the worst after the accident.”
“Accident. What accident?” The world around her started to go dark. This wasn’t happening. She had to get away. She had to save Mae.
“You can’t force your delusion on me. I have more control than you do, young lady. Always have, always will. Stop trying to escape back into it. You’ll remain here and you’ll stay focused.”
“You’re the reason this is happening! Rutherford, he told me it was one of your sick games.” Fear started to close off her throat, and she looked down at her hand. The one that still clutched the case she’d taken from the limo. The case that had led her here.
“It’s unfortunate what happened. Rutherford was supposed to break through before things went too far. Unfortunately, you didn’t let him and a good scientist was lost. One that had started to make sense of what this is.”
Lillian’s eyes closed, “I don’t understand.”
“None of it was real – well, it was for as long as you were in the delusion.”
Nothing made sense. Everything that had happened couldn’t have been a delusion. It was real. She’d felt it, seen it, everything that had happened. “Mae…”
“You always did want a sister.”
“I don’t understand.” Now she was whining. Part of her desperate to get away, to save Mae. Somehow, part of her was willing her to stay where she was. Maybe the torment could end.
“Sometimes I don’t either. I do think this is my fault in a way. It appears to be a genetic flaw that we both have. I had just told you about it before the accident. You must have latched onto that and used it to create your new world. First, by running away – and when that got too boring, you decided to add some excitement.”
“Wait. What accident?”
“The plane crash. Don’t you remember? That’s when it all started for you.”
“Plane crash?”
“It’s why you’ve become afraid to fly.” Her father leaned forward, meeting her eyes. “Lillian. You have the power to change reality, just by thinking it. We both do.”
“That’s ridiculous. I was just…”
A slow smile creased the corners of his eyes, a twinkle sparkling out from the green depths. “What were you doing, Lillian?”
“Chasing vampires.” Her lower lip started to push out and she sank into a nearby bench. “None of it was real?”
“It was real enough. For at least a few days.” He squeezed her hand, “Think back, Lil. What happened when I got back from the Gulf?”
“You left us.”
“I experienced some trauma over there. It took almost ten years for me to figure out how to control it, and another five to find someone I trusted to study what it was and how it happened. By the time I had control enough to be around you without putting you in danger, you wanted nothing to do with me. Remember?”
Bit by bit the memories started to surface. The argument she’d had with him. The one that she told him she wanted nothing to do with him. Two years later she’d gotten on the puddle jumper for a short flight. A mechanical error.
“Lil.”
“I don’t know what’s real anymore.”
“You will.”
“But…Rutherford.”
“An unfortunate accident. Trust me, if anyone understood the risk, it was him. He’s been watching over you for a while, and thought he could manage to get to you safely.”
Lillian lifted her eyes, searching for any sign of deception. “Am I insane?”
“No.”
“Are you sure?”
“No more than I am.”
“Not comforting.”
“I know.”
She shook her head, “What about all those people? Damien, Mae-“
“Damien and Mae were not really real. They will fade back into your imagination with everything else that didn’t come from something solid.”
“Like Rutherford.”
“Yes. Like Rutherford.”
“What now?”
“You have to trust me for a change. Let me help you.”
“I don’t have a choice, do I?” His laughter made her smile, despite the fears and doubts still clinging to her. She stood and moved behind his chair, looking back at the case she’d left on the ground. It faded before her eyes.
“Now that you’ve found me, there’s no need for that, is there?”
“I suppose not.” With a shrug, she pushed him back to the building. “Where to?”
“Just down the hall, to the right.”
Right after they turned the corner, she tensed. Something wasn’t right. Before she could react, two orderlies rushed out from a nearby room and grabbed her. “Dad?”
“I’m sorry, Lillian.” Her father stood up from the wheelchair and walked over, pulling the cap off of a syringe. “You shouldn’t have come back. Trust me, it’s better this way.”
“No!” Lillian struggled against the orderlies, a small cry escaping when the syringe pierced her flesh. Her muscle burned as the medicine hit it, and slowly her fight grew weaker. “Dad…”
“Colonel?” Rutherford stepped from the room, a pristine white lab coat covering his sturdy frame. “Will she be any more trouble?”
“Ruth-,” her tongue felt swollen. She couldn’t complete the words. Gray seeped into her vision, their voices started to muffle in her ears. Sounding far away.
“Not at all. I’m disappointed that you let her escape, Dr. I trust it won’t happen again. She’s far too valuable to our mission. We need her compliant.”
“It won’t happen again. I’ll kill her before I let her escape without completing her training.” Rutherford’s face hovered near hers, his wicked smile the last thing she saw before her eyes shut. Barely a whisper in her ears, his last sentence sent a chill through her numbing body, “She’s becoming easier to manipulate. This time she really believed you were her father.”